will we ever be satisfied?

18 Jan

which ones??

another pair of shoes. another glass of margarita. just one more kiss. on to the next lover. on to the next tweet. another night at the club. what are you looking for? one more bar of chocolate. just one. shall i call him? didn’t i buy a bottle of vodka? another wellness weekend. i need it. another butterfly in my stomach. i want it. another photo for my instagram. i just have to share it. i have to check facebook. on to the next meeting. on to the next chit-chat. another one to make love with. another one to break up with.

will we ever be satisfied?


today i went shopping for the first time in over two months. and with this act of vain ego hugging, one question led to another. it’s not a case of do i need this or that. we can skip that immediately. i do not need two more pairs of jeans (which i bought at one of my favorite stores all saints spitalfields and they are adorable, this i can tell you). i do not need another skirt (it’s a midnight blue plissé skirt and it’s amazingly beautiful. HAD to buy it). i do not need another grey t-shirt (well, yeah, bought it). and i don’t need another fancy bracelet (bought it cause it’s really hot).

don’t get me wrong. there’s no regrets. and no cynisism here. i am just wondering.

although my past months were a bit of an adventurous rollercoaster ride, i really felt in tune with myself. happy with my job, my friends, my environment. i purposely didn’t go shopping because i wanted to see how far i can go without. and for the ones who don’t know me: believe me i AM a shopping girl. always have been. but it felt right not to. then i went to NYC and what did i do: anything but shopping. well, except for some stuff i brought my friends. that doesn’t count, does it? i did not avoid to do so. i even walked to some really beautiful stores, looked at the things, saw pretty pretty things and though: ‘nah, i don’t feel it.’

but now i felt it again. and i gave in to the craving.

so, here’s the eternal question again… it’s been asked a gazillion times but i can’t help but wonder what makes us perfectly happy? what is it that puts us in perfect tune with the universe?

and how much do we have to do to achieve it?

or does it just ‘happen’ effortless?

i’m not only talking about the longings to own some new stuff. i’m also talking about the seventh margarita or the fourty fifth lover.

will we ever stop looking?

will we ever stop longing?

will we ever stop wondering?

will we ever be satisfied?

don’t worry, my sweethearts, i won’t be joining a buddhist monestary or sign in for an ashram in india. i love margaritas too much! 😉

love xxx


8 Responses to “will we ever be satisfied?”

  1. Gianfranco 2013/01/19 at 12:14 am #

    Carpe Diem Julia !! “The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.” – Buddha

    • juliastoepel 2013/01/19 at 7:47 am #

      you are so right, gianfranco!
      that basically means we are here again: at the topic of living happily ever now.
      i will practice this and like this, i should have no problem with going shopping or having a margarita every once in a while 😉
      have a great day xx

  2. teamgloria 2013/01/19 at 11:10 am #

    Dearest Julia

    Everytime we buy something, we give something away.

    There’s an essential flow to the universe then 🙂

    *smiling* in LA.

    So excited that you’re planning a June visit!

    _teamgloria xx

    • juliastoepel 2013/01/19 at 1:43 pm #

      oh, i like the idea of helping the energies flow in and out of our world. that is sooooo zen 😉

      yes! i hope my LA plans are working out. will you be there at that time?

      kuss aus berlin*

      • teamgloria 2013/01/19 at 10:06 pm #

        seriously hope so (green card permitting – #sigh – it’s awful waiting….)

  3. Gianfranco 2013/01/19 at 3:53 pm #

    Héhé, you got it, so enjoy your margarita, and if not enough, take another one 🙂 !! Have a nice afternoon/evening too.

  4. Kate (@shoegirlinDE) 2013/01/21 at 8:20 am #

    I often struggle with the same feelings (especially where new shoes and margaritas are concerned). Restraint is not one of my strong points. But at the same time, if we don’t continuously want/desire/question/wonder, it seems life would become pretty stagnant. And there’d be a hell of a lot less tequila!

    • juliastoepel 2013/01/21 at 9:03 am #

      dear kate,
      if it wasn’t monday morning, i’d drink to that now. so i just raise my cup of coffee and say yes! wanting, desiring, longing, is a part of as just like my new pair of boots. let’s embrace that.
      love from berlin x

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